Archive for April, 2008

teacher to be…

My very 1st day at school as TRAINEE TEACHER. I was not suppose to go for any teaching activities just yet. NO valid teaching LICENSE – not qualified lagi la . But last Monday , I went for my School Based Experience – This component will provide exposure and initial experience of the primary school context to the us, it allows me to relate theoretical knowledge to the actual school setting .

First day went so – so . nothing much . it just that , the moment I entered the school , I have this weird feeling. I fell like I am not suppose to be here . felt bad about it. Then the morning Monday assembly. I thought, all this while, I will be more ‘thrill & excited’ about going to school. But looking at all the young, small kids, the weird feeling of I am not suppose to be here is getting worst. I feel so bad about it . Very guilty indeed. What went wrong with me?

Then my very 1st class – replacement teacher. Bahasa Melayu – Year 1. Very very very nervous ! wondering how it would be in the class later.

The moment I entered the class – the whole kids stood up and said , Selamat Pagi Chegu ….. hmm.. chegu ? me… chegu ?
1st impression of my fellow fren when they know that I am doing my teaching course is .. abis la.. mati la the kids.. garang ni teacher..
Ok back to the class room situation. i said selamat pagi , sila duduk . then one boy stand up and said , chegu .. chegu .. chegu cantik la… ( OMG!!! This really happen ka? My lecturer did told us about this situation, but I was not expecting it this early… hahaha.. remember when people said , budak kecik never lie… so .. I am CANTIK la ni..:P ) but then , I haven’t abis kambang2 wit the pujian yet .. another boy stood up and said … chegu .. apa yg merah2 d pipi chigu tu.. aiyaaa.. potong trip la ni boy….. I said , it nothing . mmg muka saya mcm tu ( my 1st lie to the kids… ) and start to deliver the worksheet provided by the class teacher.
Class went chaotic, some a jumping here n there, climbing chairs and table.. I got panicked. Ada juga yg fighting … and crying … oh GOD HELP me!!! …I was out of control of the 35 pupils. Wonder if I scolded or raise up my voice to them ? nope .. I didn’t. I actually oppose that kind of attitude. Yes I am garang , but I don’t do scolding. We shouldn’t do that to young kid.. (org besar boleh.. ahahaha) but class went wild. reaaly WILD!!! Nasib baik 30 minute jak. I went back to the staffroom feeling bad -and exhausted !!!, I can’t handle this class, and how am I going to be a teacher? ( got to my head juga.. pa mcm la if i got my own kidsssss… adus!!)
The other 3 class I went and replace was even worst. How am I going to face my student for my practicum later? – matai la ni …
Did some ‘counseling’ with fellow teacher friend, senior teacher and my beloved sis.
Up to date, I think I am getting better. Hopefully can do the GREATEST.. The kids need me to be so.. ahahaha.. semangat la kunun…. No la… this all come to me because I don’t want my kids to be thought ‘cincai-cincai’…. So in order to do so…. I won’t do the same thing…

Go .. go .. go… me !!!

April 19, 2008 at 1:26 am 10 comments

chak po’s ambition

i cant help it wit my 3 nieces jokes today.. actually it was not a joke la .. i think they r serious .. but it was funny…

ok , it goes like dis , my mom was asking my nieces what is their ambition.. so start wit the 1st one ..

niece 1 : i want to be a designer ..
me : wat type of designer ..
niece 1 : the one decorate lumah la.. kasi susun2 n kasi cantik2 rumah ..
me : oh.. next time u say u want to become home interior designer

then mom ask my 2nd niece what she wanted to be , her answer was

niece 2 : i wan to become teacher like aunty ( oh.. she meant me … )
me : ya ka.. wat subject u want to teach?
niece 2 : malay
me : y malay? ur malay oso tebalik2
niece 2 : sinang ma .. itu bahasa saja saya paham….

the suddenly….
my 3rd niece : chak poh ( my mom !) tanya2 kami punya cita-cita .. chak poh le? apa cita-cita
my mom : jadi nenek la…
3rd niece : mana boleh cita-cita jadi nenek oo…
my mom : boleh ma… sudah tua cita2 jadi nenek la…
3rd niece : aunty , mcm begitu pun boleh ka…

i was already laughing… cos the way she was the question dat time. very serious and full of curiosity and they insist to know wat my mom want to be when she grow older…

wat would ur answer be if ur kids ask such q?

April 15, 2008 at 10:11 pm 2 comments

sadie sadie sadie…

this is so sad…i got this story in one of my friend presentation … actually the title is about testing and evaluation .. there is not much about the topic actually , but i am so touch with the story she told us …

here it goes…

Once upon a time, there was a girl.

She had impaired vision……

She hates everyone surrounding her.

Except her boyfriend……

The girl told her boyfriend

“I wish that I can see you one day…

…When the day comes, I will marry you.”

One day, the girl received a pair of donated eyes.

Finally she was able to see her boyfriend.


She discovered that her boyfriend was blind too!!!

“Will you marry me?”

Her boyfriend asked.

When the girl saw his situation, she rejected him without thinking twice.

Her boyfriend didn’t get angry with her.

He smiles and said:

“Then you must take care of my eyes as how much I take care of you……”


sadie .. sadie.. sadie……wondering if this kind of love still exist in this world….

anyway , if me the guy.. i go ask back my eyes .. hahaha … nda ikhlas btol!!!

April 2, 2008 at 9:03 pm 3 comments

Today is….

April 2008