togetherness….

rejuvenate .. that is wat i needed the most now…
best place is always goin for a beach ..

walking by the shore , sand is so therapeutic….. looking at the sea …. the sound of the waves reaches me …

its seem like its understand what i felt deep inside…

‘umbrella’? is it the time? ….

to enjoy the scenery together …

Coming together is a beginning; keeping together is progress; working together is success.

the success part is the hardest ; to keep it …..in a glass….

until the end….

adeeehhhh…. jiwang si kawang ni … ahahaha…..

but seriously i need to rejuvenate myself… the best place is an island… anyone ?

Quarter Life Crisis

Quarter-life Crisis?! what is it actually ? read below to know more….

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. oh ok ..

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. ah… scary!!!

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. hmmm… interesting.. keep reading…

What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. oh really ? i thought they hated me …

You look at your job … and it is not even close to what you thought. You would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. i am currently jobless… wat i am working on also too is far from what i’ve been dreaming of or planning before… TRUE i am scared now!!! i am about to start a new leaf …. this is getting scarier …

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t. oh yea.. this is SO TRUE…

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. wat a life!!!

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person. sound pathetic , huh ?!

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. un-certainty , indecisive .. fell like a fish out of water …this is how i felt now!!!!

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender! i do hope i can and still hanging on …

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

do u ? anybody is having the same symphtom ? is this normal for a person in my age, i dont know… i dont know what i know …

FB Finally….

Call me outdated …or old fashion .. what ever … yes I am still not in the latest thingy as everybody does..
i know not many using FS anymore…. Many invited me to see and join their FB.. ..its time to change …and times has changed ..

and I am not a person that really like move around  .. even I am very easy to adapt to new environment … ( what am I talking about ..?! confuse ? so do I …). i took me almost 2 yr to be in FS .. and it think it is still ok wit less than a yr to be

finally … today .. I am OFFICIALLY on FB!!!! Satisfied? Getting myself familiar with the new environment and I know I will survive..

its a lilttle bit confusing … still not familiar wit the features ….

ok ok .. laugh as u wish.. I am new kids on the block ( remember those time when everybody adores the NKOTB .. Jon .. ya .. I was Jon) , pls give some guide with this new playground ya…

p/s: I know this is not a good example , but I am in a very B*R#NG course at the moment … nobody should do this at home… ook .. do it only when u r in a situation like mine.. ahahaha….

group photos….

its a week before we leave our BELOVED college …

and i wanted to have a group photo with my dearie classmate… something like what FRISCO did way in tawau ….

but he is good at this.. i never really take any group photo … expect this one .. it was yr ago.. itu pun organize and directed by my most impressive photograhper BL…a newly found interesting , kewl and fun-tastic frenz… .. its been a while since i met them…. miss u guyssss….

so , here is some pics captured while i am trying to figure out my camera setting … it was new back then …

men panjat2 lagi oo….

elaine with her sweet smile ….

wat is going on here ? amik position ka ?

so here they are ….1 2 3 .. smilezzzz

hmmm…McHottie ni….

its not easy being beginner and taking shots.. so from that almost 2 hours photo-session , i only manage to take some ‘good’ photos….

i have planned for BBQ Gathering at the same place as these photos are taken ( Tg. Aru), but due to certain pb… kena change venue… … i do hope to be able to capture ‘the moments’ with all my dear classmate …

back in town …

back in town ….and i an not yeyying at all… another week full of … i dun know how to really say about it… the objectiveSS of all the courses is good…. very good actually.. perhaps how the program is conducted requires.. hmm …. how to say this.. i cant actually find the right words… but here is what happen to me …

3 days of final exam ( monday to wed ) … there is already a crack on my head…

then on Thur and fri , we have to go for another anti- drug course… which is good right? .. the course where we get exposure of dealing with drug and what is the current scenario in school…

while others is enjoying time off before heading for another course in Kundasang.. i am dealing with another ‘responsibility’ …. saya yang menurut perintah !!!

then on the 13 – 18 .. another GOOD course… honestly , i do agree the important of this courses i attended ….. but the none stop talks , and group discussion – some of it very very provoking… and i feel like saying what i want to say .. speak up my mind , saying my piece… but for own sake .. dun argue !!! , plus with the climate .. adiiii… mo remuk juga la tulang2 ni.. physical test?? ya … i am not up to it anymore… dulu2 boleh la …

now.. another 3 weeks course to go… as i said .. the courses is good for me and the future .. but …. i am mentally and physically tired .. cant take it… and now holding on … trying to motivate my own self … and keep the eyes open…

2 weeks to go .. and .. dear me !! HANG ON THERE !!!! chiayo … chiayo…

i know in the future i will regrets for not paying all my attention to what i am listening in this course … but i am just an ordinary people … trying to be extraordinary kunun.. trying to change the future ? yea rite!!!!

soooooodah la AziE!! …

away mode….

will be away mode from today up to the 18th… not something i am looking fwd… i hope and wish i will have ‘great’ time thou…

and come back in 1 piece….

yurp , i need the LUCK!!!

taaaa..bye…

p/s: i know u r reading this … have a safe long flight .. 😀 . see u next yr ..