trying to forget someone….

April 15, 2009 at 2:01 pm 41 comments

I thought I met the guy of my dreams. This special person is not the only captured my heart, but he did too turns me insane… sleepless night … just thinking of him, turning me up side down.

I thought we were going to be together forever, then we ended up in two different ways, different life goals that only lead further away from each other. I was totally crushed knowing this and it hurt me for the longest time.

Anyway, I’m getting desperate and I can’t seem to function properly ever since we talked about the ‘no future together’. I can’t stop thinking of him and I don’t know what to do but it is really annoying when I have to do lots of other things. I’m also in a bad shape all the time and am constantly day-dreaming (of him – obviously). This is going on for quite sometimes and it really burdens me.

Now that I realize there nothing I can do to fix the relationship, I do too know that we will never be together yet I can’t prevent my feelings for him. I keep longing for him and…. dreaming of the old good times together…..

due to this heart aching situation….i have lost few kilos.. and now drop from size M to .. not S aa…XS .. how small is that ?

The bottom line is, he is not the man .. So.. Cut the crap!!
I am just writing this to kill time …hahaha…. my real point is .. i lost few kilos and yes .. i am on size XS ..


got this piece last week … XS tu … waduuuuhhh .. but look at the price .. ingatkan the lesser the kain they use the cheaper the price be !! d#m!!!

To bidz: jan ko gagaran aa…:P

untuk mendapatkan rahsia XS , u have to call me personally !!! 😛

Entry filed under: life, Me & Myself.

on my way to happYness…. rare vs common

41 Comments Add your own

  • 1. biding  |  April 15, 2009 at 3:35 pm

    OMG….can somene make me head over the heel with him? Then crush me down so that I can lost some of my cute baby fat!

    huhuhuhuhuhuhuu waaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

    p/s damn him! I mean nak, ur dream guy!

  • 2.  |  April 15, 2009 at 5:51 pm

    no wonder u getting sexy

  • 3. frenday  |  April 15, 2009 at 6:56 pm

    new method to loose weight drasticly!!!!…..jj arrrr…well pain in hearts makes a person even stronger!!!! and loose weight easier….again jj…

  • 4. adexx9181  |  April 16, 2009 at 1:19 pm

    ben : sexy ka pula ?

  • 5. adexx9181  |  April 16, 2009 at 1:21 pm

    cai : 😀

  • 6. McBuddy  |  April 16, 2009 at 1:33 pm

    This is not a comment from a LOVE GURU…but i’ll give it a shot…so here goes….

    Trying to forget someone???…i dun think that’s the biggest problem here….the big question is..”HOW DO YOU FIX A BROKEN HEART??”..

    Zie, i know you’re good at stitching up nice beady crystal onto your clothes, and i know getting urself stitched up for the visible wounds is not something new to you too.. you’ll hv scar from those wounds; scars that will always remind and haunt you about what had happened…but having to bear the invisible wounds in your heart is way more painful to overcome…the trauma, the hurt, the emptiness…those are the things that are no easy fixing…The same goes for getting yourself hurt by someone you really love…whether it’s a family member, a friend or your special someone…these are the people that mattered the most. That is why you feel more pain..

    so how do you fix this??? some professionals say that you can overcome it by expressing yourself (but for pete’s sake, dun overdo it la..hahha kidding) OR you can do something you like to distract yourself (but apparently, you kinda hate what you hv to do right now kan)…well ok..maybe you can go travelling?? (but that would require you to bring me along…so more expenses for you…and that’ll make you more hysterical..hmm..not a good idea). So i think the best solution is to treat yourself with some sinful desserts, they say ice-cream is good for soothing heartache…and since you’re turning into some b**chy skinny zombie, i guess that’s the best solution so far…hehe

    ok dear…you want the truth…here’s the harsh reality to this…nothing really works…even if you try your best to mend it, hide it, not to think about it, or cry the crap out of it…NOTHING! nothing can fix it…at least not completely… It’s just the way it is…you experience things, you get yourself hurt, you deal with it and get over it…whether you got over it or not, you’ll just hv to live with it…whatever happened happened…that’s the ugly truth about life… pain or no pain… life goes on… just look at the brighter side la…at least you’re getting sexier…haha…

    told ya this is not a comment from any love expert…tapi habis juga ko baca kan…hhehehe…

  • 7. adexx9181  |  April 16, 2009 at 2:03 pm

    hahaha… i think i need more consultation hour form u …

    can u get a time off from hubby so we can go wild and crazy ? and its my definition of wild and crazy ….

    i kind of wanting to have ice cream – but guess what s the best ice cream they have..? paddle pop!

  • 8. McBuddy  |  April 16, 2009 at 2:32 pm

    more consultation means more CRAP SESSION la ni kan…hahaha…
    okla bah tuh ada paddle pop…daripada ko sad-and-drop lagi…makan dulu apa yg ada…later then you treat me to some real ice-cream..haha…we can arranged some wild and crazy b**ch time bah…just make sure it’s not as wild and crazy as you are…

  • 9. emma  |  April 16, 2009 at 5:49 pm

    ala..cian ko kan dear..ko rilek jak cna 2 k..ramai lg yg mo ngan ko 2..dr ko jak mo pilih yg mna,,sx?! btl bha!eee..jelesnya i dear!i mati2 mo dpt size 2 nda dpt2! mesti ko sexy mcm model2 ni especially klu ko dress up sexy!

  • 10. frenday  |  April 16, 2009 at 8:58 pm

    paddle pop????….emm what did i miss????

    anyway, this is a good topic…u really want to forget someone??? ok thats simple but sometime hard to achieve. 1Q: Why? 2Q: What are the +ve effect/benefit you can get when you can forget him? if you can truly answer this both than you will achieve your mission to forget him, really i tell you 🙂

    ok this is just my random talks k, when we try to forget someone that doesnt mean that we hate the person but sometime its just becoz we dont want “something that have no meaning at the end” – something that should be meaning full to us at the first place! so why waste our time..drop it..move on..but the memories follow (ok this memories is the worst part it stuck in you head!) so if you can get over the old sweet memories, only then you can forget them. Cheer up zie 🙂 few things do takes time…i already told you before, no man is worth your tears, and when you find the man who is, he’ll never make you cry. ok timeout..paddle pop!

  • 11. adexx9181  |  April 17, 2009 at 7:33 am

    em: sexy ta karang … its getting smaller bha….
    u r happy … so susah tu mo XS… 😀

  • 12. adexx9181  |  April 17, 2009 at 7:37 am

    chel : i tot i am the one yg sad and u r the one whom suppose to cheer me up… treat me ?

    can i not have ice cream ? i wan choc cake from either stabak or kupiben.

    and where is my GA and DH supply? in the moment like this….the supply will really help me in dealing wit this misery ( ka mistery ??) !!

  • 13. adexx9181  |  April 17, 2009 at 7:48 am

    cai cai cai.. my guardian angel!!! always….. u gave me the wises and greatest advice.

    i have no hatred , and its true the sweet memories is the only thing i am holding on!!! so now i should think of the mean part ka ? :p

    i have no more tear for man… i am in tear sebab susah mo cari baju …. and nowhere to hang out ( not nowhere .. no gang ba ) huk3…..

  • 14. MooN  |  April 17, 2009 at 1:31 pm

    cilakak!! tertipu aku dgn crita ko!

    ps. tahniah dpt pakai xs.woi ko aneroxia ka??? kekeke… oh ya turunkan ilmu di dada sama si bid

  • 15. ANdEr  |  April 17, 2009 at 2:15 pm

    Uiks..from M to xs aaar?????hahaha….men siokkk tuu…so???upload ur latest pic…..capatttt~~ sa mo tgk yg dari M p Xs tuuuu hehehe……

    p/s= uisehhh RM119.90 aaar utk bajuuu..hihihih……..
    But….satu jak sa mo cakap…lots of guys out there tengah tunggu ko tuuu….just wait for ur green light seja…so…pandai2 lah ko cari…hehehe…

    sometime we cudn’t see the real person in front of us just becuz we’ve been blinded for those who we THOUGHT is meant to be with us…*wink…renung2kan…selamat bermesra….hihih

  • 16. adexx9181  |  April 17, 2009 at 3:13 pm

    moon : aneroxia? nda la..banyakkkan tinguk… hmmm ( unable to disclose here … )

    ilmu di ‘dada’? sudah berkurangan ni … sorry nak !!! u have to contact me personally ..:P

  • 17. McBuddy  |  April 17, 2009 at 3:42 pm

    “it’s getting smallerr???”….nooooo!!!! not the boobiesss….!!! we all love the boobiesss…hahahha….please dun show this to my hubby ya…haha…

    hey girl…i only ask for ice cream for the payment of all those sessions okay…how cheap do you want??? and i even give you extra medicine you know…all these years i hv been supplying you with all the series booze… apa lagi ko mo ahhh??? heheheh…maybe i shud ask for a RM119.90 punya baju ni…

  • 18. frenday  |  April 17, 2009 at 5:33 pm

    ayiaaa…so that is the problem ka…well ada KRK ma…ada VOVO…they said its among the best place to hang out – i mean “best” 😉 but gangs for hangging out??? ummm i oso hav no solution for that, just dont hang out wit the unknown laa coz ko tu bila mabuk pandai begolek-golek di kursi sampai mau jatuh p lantai 🙂 ok jj arrr…..for the baju emm…like i said few things do takes time…as well as size 🙂

  • 19. adexx9181  |  April 17, 2009 at 5:43 pm

    ander :malas la sa mo upload latest pics…. i still have the same gorgeous, sizzling hot look la… ( ahaha… manyasal ko menbaca ni kan ..:P. jan panas buss!!!! )

    satu juga sa mo cakap sama ko .. how do u know…? that is the lots of men ko suruh drg tahan2 dulu niat ni kan … ko mo ada kasi kwn ko kan .. patut la.. now i know!!!!

    pa mcm lagi org mo nampak sa skrg.. dulu dr L pun nda kana nampak … ni lagi la sudah XS….

    panat sudah sa merenung2 ni …

    bermesra ? ai.. mendalam ni maksudnya tau….

  • 20. adexx9181  |  April 17, 2009 at 5:49 pm

    chel: who is talking about the boobies ? ( buat2 muka blur..)

    FINE !! i want the supply ASAP!

    u can have the baju … but the big Q is … can u fit in? ( hahah…. i am so mean!!!) – this is for not giving me my supply!!!

  • 21. adexx9181  |  April 17, 2009 at 9:01 pm

    cai : i heard about KRK – selalu limpas2 la … but VOVO … di mana tu ? new “IN” place in town ka ?
    p/s: jan d ungkit2 kisah silam itu …. tewas tahap gaban tu ….

  • 22. McBuddy  |  April 17, 2009 at 10:45 pm

    Counter-attack ROUND 1 !! ding ding ding~~
    I may not fit in your XS baju, but i can always get a bigger size…WITHOUT HAVING TO PAY IT FOR MYSELF okayyy… ada “bank” peribadi ya 😛

    Counter-attack ROUND 2 !! ding ding ding~~
    no place to hang out?? no one to hang out with??? well..just face it…i’m your “Christina Yang”…you need me…ME, my series booze and my crappy sessions…for how else can you kill your spare time if not for all those… 😛

    Counter-attack ROUND 3 !! ding ding dinggg~~~(and this is the best one)
    like i said before..the series are always available, kalau berani bawa bulok turun kk, singgah la TKM ambik… 😛

  • 23. adexx9181  |  April 18, 2009 at 6:42 pm

    u .. u .. ( muka merah padan now … mcm mo meletup ni.. but since i have already register patient in my dictionary … )

    ala… i know u wan my baju .. na.. na.. na.. u wan my baju …

    yes u r my person !!! but u r not by my side ! u r suppose to say yes .. cos if not i will cost u more session …

    hahaha… tia pa.. wait til i get my confident .. bulok is always ready to vroom vroom…

  • 24. marmalade  |  April 20, 2009 at 7:10 pm

    serius bah xs size? mo imagine da ni cmana ur latest look..hehe..

    ps: sa limpas2 dlu..i think it’s my 2nd time here…

  • 25. ANdEr  |  April 20, 2009 at 11:56 pm

    ahahaha…si azie…ekekeke…kalau sa taw the right guy is only in front of me right now i guess i won’t taking my time just let him go away like dat seja……hahahaha…….jan silap sangka….hehehe…who doesn’t want to see her/his friend live a happily ever after with her/his lovers?????hahaha…..
    But…the more we think its complicated….the more it will be…hihih…
    Mana sudahhh tuuu “This year will be only ME..ME…ME>…”hak hak hak…….makanyaaaaaaa………~~~

    p/s kalau panat merenung…ko kasi tutup mata jak lahhh…rasai dengan tenang dalam jiwa yg dalam…chehhhhh~~

    p/s again : Si pidahhh sudah kawin pulak kannnnn?????

  • 26. adexx9181  |  April 21, 2009 at 12:44 am

    aik.. amik my tag line ka ni ?

    ni la mo .. mo o oi sudah .. tapi nda dapat.. terkenangkan …… kerja yg masih banyak ini … adiiiii…..sepa mo tolong ?

    p/s : ada sa dingar juga … but tia tau la …
    p/s : ko sudah mo pangkah list kwn2 yg sudah kawen ka ni ? ahahah…keep counting & crossing ya!!!

  • 27. adexx9181  |  April 21, 2009 at 12:47 am

    hi ruth ….

    how i look ? sama jak bha… not so obvious la .. cos mmg my frame besar kan… but yes ! pants pun sudah kena tukar lo…

    p/s: men limpas2 jak ka ? 😛 orait nopo!

  • 28. frenday  |  April 22, 2009 at 1:47 am

    uiiii…limpas dlu….

  • 29. adexx9181  |  April 22, 2009 at 11:01 am

    isk.. kmrg ni .. men limpas2 jak ..

    minum2 kupi la dulu ..
    ka mo juga siopon? sa tanya mama sa dulu lau ada aa…

  • 30. biding  |  April 22, 2009 at 5:00 pm

    Ander, there’s no such thing like happy ever after! unless u have mcdreamy as ur boyfriend!
    ahahahaha..macam zie?ok ka?
    eyes mesti mengancam, hair~curly!

  • 31. McBuddy  |  April 22, 2009 at 5:16 pm

    bidz, kalau hair curly tuh mcm si domyouji @ gu jun pyo @ dao ming si…hahaha…McDreamy?? sia rasa si azie lebih perlukan McDonalds tuh…sbb kurus sudah kan…

  • 32. adexx9181  |  April 22, 2009 at 11:25 pm

    bid : wat r u trying to tell me here ? mc dreamy or the curly hair ?
    no more curly hair .. i am done wit curly hair …

    and yes …no happy ever after …for now … harap2 akan ada d masa hadapan … ( kunuk2 mo stay positive la ni .. )

  • 33. adexx9181  |  April 22, 2009 at 11:36 pm

    chel : mcm paham2 jak ko ni kan … bha , if i go there u belanja me the mc flurry aa… ( sambil manalan air liur..glup!)

  • 34. frenday  |  April 23, 2009 at 8:56 pm

    adadadadaaaa….”(sambil manalan air liur..glup!)” 🙂 sandi ehh!!!

  • 35. adexx9181  |  April 24, 2009 at 7:43 am

    cai : glup tu mc flurry ka itu siopon? 😀 sa nampak sudah tu VOVO.. mo ilang2 sudah tulisan dia tu …..

  • 36. frenday  |  April 24, 2009 at 8:32 am

    VOVO????….emmm antah lama suda tia nampak…jgn la p sana, teda aktiviti2 yang sihat d sana tu….

    itu glup! utk mc flurry….kalu slurrrp! utk siopon 😉

  • 37. chairman  |  April 28, 2009 at 5:45 pm

    Miss me??kekeke..just to tell u that im back…not in kk the blogging world..very very soon..word of advice..”shit happened and its always happened for a reason”..what?u want me to tell u the reason lagi?!kekeke…

  • 38. adexx9181  |  April 29, 2009 at 1:17 am

    cai : wont go such place without my angel …
    translate : dtg2 la melawat ..:)

  • 39. adexx9181  |  April 29, 2009 at 1:26 am

    hi luke : welkam back!!!

    hahaha.. i guess that is what ppl would say to make others feel better, rite?
    too bad … that line doesn’t work for me anymore….:p

  • 40. chairman  |  May 2, 2009 at 7:29 pm

    Nope..u guess wrong..its not to make ppl feel is wat it say it is..shit happened and it does happened for a reason..bukan sia mau kasi sanang hati ko..kekeke..saja mau kasitau ko gitu..

  • 41. adexx9181  |  May 4, 2009 at 11:15 am

    sh*t is always a sh*t .. manamo elak kan.. pagi2 pun got nature call sudah kan… 😀

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