cuti2 sikulan….

yey .. rite now .. i am singing the cuti cuti sikulan song…

2 weeks off from work and i have no plan.. but have to attend wedding invitations, meeting up wit my dear kakak and along …

for the pass 2 days off .. i have seen , met wit bunch of great ppl… now i realize that i have not been ‘there’ yet…

and being among this ‘different’ type of lifestyle budding new hope for me ….

so now i am looking fwd to ’embrace’ my life more…. and will be telling myself… live never been better… it just so great !!

received this quote in my mail this morning … 😀

Life is short, // totally agree
Break the rules, // yes .. lets break it !!
Forgive quickly, // should do !!
Kiss slowly, // adeeeeehh ni yg payah ni …
Love truly, // ini lagi la paaaayyyyaaahhhhh
Laugh uncontrollably, // hahaha.. i am good at this..
And never regret anything that made you smile…. // YURP!!!

Love found me? I found love?

I don’t know either love found me

or

I found love again!!!

I cant believe this is happening to me again … the trip to Singapore is another great story.

Well, actually I don’t normally kiss and tell. (ops.. I just did it!!).
tears of joy run down my face .. and I a waiting for another day with him again….
Its takes me miles away across the sea for someone of my dreams….I keep asking myself Is this true? How can it be?

I’ve searched for the right man for my entire life, man kept breaking my heart. i even started to think that love was untrue, a fantasy , nothing real…full of stupidity…

I found love when no one seemed to care!!!

NOW …..I found love! When I thought no one want to listen to me anymore…
He came from the thin air .. Showed me love and he said he cared. I found love!! How nice to say it again and again…

because of the love he showed me, now I can give love back. I am not sure either this will last forever, but for now. I know there is a true love. He made everything seems so right. Even in a very short time.
I found this man across the sea, he is just like a package wrapped just for me. A gift of love..

I am again in love. And it took me a long journey.

here is how my love story begin…

met these bunch of guys .. talking about the fantastic, most eligible man ever alive in singapore.. i was skeptical about it …and said .. manada la such great man …

i said . come on .. that will never happen !!!

i even have a fight wit them …
but i guess i was wrong .. he is for real!!! and i can stop myself from kissing him .. in PUBLIC!!!!

Kring.. kriinggg.. wake up!! Stop dreaming … reality check again !!! there is no such thing!! Maybe it is .. but not for me .. this story is inspired from the photo I took while at Singapore.. and yes .. there is no HIM.. ahaha… is that mean I am still in the market ? ka3.. my fren said I should buat sale 70% off..mampoih…

who i am : soul searching ….

this song mean a lot to me …

it says exactly what i have been facing all this while….

here is the lyrics… read thru , and u will understand ….

Look at me,
I will never pass for a perfect bride.
Or a perfect daughter.
Can it be I’m not meant to play this part?
Now I see that if I were truly to be myself,
I would break my family’s heart.

Chorus:
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me.
Why is my reflection someone I don’t know

Somehow I cannot hide who I am,
Though I’ve tried.
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside.

When will my reflection show
Who I am inside.

i have been searching .. and looking who i want to be .. and what will i be …

i think i have tried to be a good human, but human make mistakes .. and i am a human .. i make mistake too…

now there part of myself asking what exactly i want to do , or to be … nobody can answer that question except my own self .. but there is a question i can ask around to improve myself ..

what can i do ?

trying to forget someone….

I thought I met the guy of my dreams. This special person is not the only captured my heart, but he did too turns me insane… sleepless night … just thinking of him, turning me up side down.

I thought we were going to be together forever, then we ended up in two different ways, different life goals that only lead further away from each other. I was totally crushed knowing this and it hurt me for the longest time.

Anyway, I’m getting desperate and I can’t seem to function properly ever since we talked about the ‘no future together’. I can’t stop thinking of him and I don’t know what to do but it is really annoying when I have to do lots of other things. I’m also in a bad shape all the time and am constantly day-dreaming (of him – obviously). This is going on for quite sometimes and it really burdens me.

Now that I realize there nothing I can do to fix the relationship, I do too know that we will never be together yet I can’t prevent my feelings for him. I keep longing for him and…. dreaming of the old good times together…..

due to this heart aching situation….i have lost few kilos.. and now drop from size M to .. not S aa…XS .. how small is that ?

The bottom line is, he is not the man .. So.. Cut the crap!!
I am just writing this to kill time …hahaha…. my real point is .. i lost few kilos and yes .. i am on size XS ..

got this piece last week … XS tu … waduuuuhhh .. but look at the price .. ingatkan the lesser the kain they use the cheaper the price be !! d#m!!!

To bidz: jan ko gagaran aa…:P

untuk mendapatkan rahsia XS , u have to call me personally !!! 😛

confession of a non – shopaholics

i am not a shopaholics for a starter …

and i don’t usually go shopping went i am stressed up…
the reason being .. my stress level can be measure wit how much junk food i bought …

but .. i am not into junkie food nowadays…so i tot .. its ok for windows shopping… cuci-cuci mata may can cheer me up…really need that now!!!!

i do too rarely spend so much in  for clothes…. my friend always say i am a cheap skate .. if i do get something it must be on on SALE item …well , sama juga wat .. still can wear …

but last weekend .. for the 1st time … ever ..
i spent over than .. aaarrggghhh… make me feel like.. ..
how do i feel like now ?
regret ? naaa.. i do not regret at all.. ..

i feel like i am doing something like i told my self .. this year is all about me n myself …but i do feel like i am crazy … and still amazed wit my ‘courage’ to spent that much… over clothes… gila ini perempuan ni…

my receipt … bagagar juga ni bila sign the gores n menang card….
there goes half of my salary for next month…

so i guess for those who know how i spent my money , will be able to sense how stress i am now..
take a deep breath .. hold.. hold it .. hold … hold it .. now release in count of ten …slowly .. ahhhh….

its 12:01 am on the 7 April … gud night and sweet dream!

me … now!

this is me .. now …..

my update is .. i am a teacher now in a special school .  there is so many thing happened n sooooo many stories .. but will keep that for later .. i am more excited to intro my very special pupils …

edgar is on the left   – he look like someone i know from the past .. but up to date i still can’t recall who is he …

roynold on the right .. as u can see roynold is holding my hand very tight .. because he told every teacher in the school he like me .. he will get very mad if i am talking to other male ..even to other male teacher…

this is daniel.. very cute boy…
dexter is the one on the left – one of the good kid we have -but he will get annoyed if we didnt pay full attention to wat he is sayin and he will say — cikgu ni .. org cakap pun tidak dengar…

randall is the one will be asking either he will get a hadiah if he finishes his work…
this is the famous haziq… and it is so hard to get his attention to the cam….
nak kena gambar .. tu la konon rajin buat keje…
this is Pendidikan Jasmani time …

activity is to throw the ball to the FRONT – and as easy as we think it would be .. ada juga bola ke belakang … 😀

this is only the beginning .. at the early stage of me in adapting in the new enviroment .. so how exactly i am doing ?

i am still standing!