Are you ready to roll?

I normally will be asked what to expect when one becoming a special education. I said, for someone like me, without proper training in the special education, expect the worst. So in case things don’t go that great, you won’t be so down as u have mentally and physically prepared for it.

This is very contrary to the other advise people will give, as people would say expect the best, shoot for the star.. But if the star is not shining at all..?

So am i ready to roll? I never think I am ready for anything, always there will be a worries and doubt of my capability in performing something. All I have is, what if, what now question .

But here is the thing that make me alive. Things like, when I am teaching the kids ,

Me: (showing a picture of gasing). This is gasing. (Then pointing at the picture again and ask the pupil). What is this?

Pupil : Paper! ( answering like there is nothing wrong wit it )

honestly , when this kind of thing happen , I will be cracking out loud. Especially when I tried to explain the it twice or more. But all they see is the paper.

Another scenario happened yesterday. In my English class , I am introducing the words boy, girl , man and woman . boy and girl is easy as I asked them to stand up if they are a boy or a girl. Then when it come to man, they were kind of lost.

So I give and example

Me: Man is like cikgu Ali. Now anybody can give me another example of a man (of course this one is in bahasa ya…)

Guess what the answer

Pupil: Superman!

So how would u handle the class? There is nothing wrong with their answer actually. They have the ‘thinking-outside-of-the-box’ kind of thing…

I do always read about joke as such, I do found it funny, but when it happen to myself. i have a blast! So are u ready to roll in special education?

You will not only roll, u will rock the world!!!

ps :pix are courtesy of the soon to be special teacher , the above story are also inspired by them.thanks to Felicia & Patricia of IP Gaya – KPLI Pendidikan Khas Jan 2009 Intake .

and i lurve all the pix taken via their laptop cam.. my skin look so flawless…

Photographer wanna be …

Bukan photographer tak suka bergambar ke? This is what I got from my fren when I keep asking them to take my photo using my DSLR …

Well… CORRECTION .. I am NOT a photographer (yet :P).. I am a photographer –wanna-be …. and yes I like to take photo .. and I like my photo to be taken too… sebagai bahan bukti .. that I have been there.. becoming model-wanna-be juga la sikit2.. manatau … har3….but seriously ….its not wrong, right ? (perasan!!)

I was told to find a photographer BF .. so .. here to my BFF … sapat2 p bikin tu passport… So we can take each other photo… I am very sure u know how I want my pix to be .. but 1st thing 1st , we must travel together!!!

Traveling is not easy if all alone … mesti tiada pix of own face .. scenery melulu jak tu … ..lau begitu itu .. bagus bili postcard seja ..kan ? lagi santik ..and its by professional … nda buang karan & money… ke3…

Traveling berduet also hard .. nanti u take my pix, I take urs… lau honeymoon… mcm p honeymoon sendiri.. so to R&C..… for ur next travel plan… I am here .. to capture ur moment TOGETHER…. where are we going again? Macau? My back is pack already ….

So , what is the best way to get our face IN the photo while traveling alone? Get someone we don’t know to take the photo ? use tripod? well, I heard that is it not secure to do so, as I was told that the someone might just run away wit our camera … plus .. do u trust that barely-know-person to pigang our cam ? and using tripod is so leceh.. barat tu mo bawa… and masa setup tu … skali org langgar … lagi la haru biru merah jingga and all the colour will turn out….

Any tips?

Singapore Trip Details Part 1

When I purchased the air ticket to Singapore, I dont know what to expect. I don’t have any plan in mind . All I wanted to do is to get away somewhere not in town.

So it’s happened that when I am browsing the tigerairways.com there have a promotion going on. And it’s happened that I was yahooing wit my dear ex-hsemate , Eda (when I was in Malacca back in 2000). She work and live in Singapore. So its all begin from there….

Well, actually I have planned to go to Singapore after I saw the photos from my dear ex-hsemate , Chelven’s honeymoon trip..thank to u … for the flower at ur wedding day and the honeymoon pix..

I have been persuading ( forcing in fact) my another ex-housemate, Anderia to go with me .. but that plan was back in march. When she said we could not make it , I stop planning .. ( no more planning ahead for me .. never been lucky in that planning stage …..) until the Monday 27 April – i have confirmed the tickets.

From there on, I have been googling about places of interest in Singapore. mcm banyak jak ni place to go … but I don’t have much time – I only have exactly 2 day and 1 night there.

What to do and go there ? I asked Eda . She said , when I am there , then we plan!

At the same time, I was too busy at work … network connection is not helping me to look for more info… aaa.. ..belasah jak la ..sudah beli tiket pun …. bila lagi right?

Erk.. I have not convert my money yet … current exchange rate is RM 1 = S$2.40… that time .. I begin to worry .. sukup ka ni tusin ni … according to chelven , S$500 is enuff… but Eda said S$1000.00 would be great…

Went to the bank to verify about the usage of credit card charges .. and that is the time I realize my cc expiring on MAY 2009 .. that is on the date im leaving … another drama for me … I called the bank in KK to asked about my new card , fuhhh… it is ready for collection .. lucky me!

On Thursday, got off from work …went to bus station , took a bus , reached kk ..straight to Maybank – collected my cc, change SOME money .. the figure getting smaller .. uhuk3… and got myself to the airport … was very anxious ..

went very very sleepy when I got to the plane… I fall asleep right after we took off… mula2 tu jak berdebar2 jantung ….. flight all by myself … 1st time ni …

I was waken up by the air stewardess when we are about to land sing .. haaa… baru la ni jantung mcm mo tercabut … what if Eda is not there.. what would I do? Bagagar sikijap ni …

Landed safely in sing , a very long walk to the exit door.. gila la…. Mcm round 10 padang ni ( padang at my skol jak la..:P) i arrive at gate 1 .. and i didnt really count how many gate they have .. but it for sure more than 6 gate.…

I became more anxious at the immigration counter … my eyes is was like .. where is she .. where is she … then I saw one hand waving at me … yey !! she is there. And another ye is I got a 1 stamp on my passport .. < 1 mission achieved> wink wink…

Even it was 1:20 am at that time , Sing is still bright … tapi .. no time for any plan just yet .. eda and I where just too sleepy …..big day is tomorrow…. Took a cab , when to Eda hse. She told me she stays in a Flat. Government flat she said- nothing fancy. But when I got to her hse.. it was HUGE!!!! I can’t imagine how it will look like for a condo there…

well.. this is my morning 1 story at Sing. more story coming later…

safely landed!!!

lastest update for my-all-by-myself trip…

yup i have been flying on a jet plane.. wit all mixed feeling .. my very first all by myself trip y’all..

i took a flight wit australian base airlines …( wah.. mcm best jakk..) with Tigerairways actually . ada promotion .. the story of getting the ticket pun mencabar.. its took me 3 day to get my ticket .. jam kali tu line ..

flight departed KKIA T2 at 11.05 pm … and landed SINGAPORE airport at 1:20am… yes i am in singapore… one of the reason i’ve been SINGing before …

now i am at my fren hse.. planning for our tomorrow trip… and its a lot of $money$$ involved… i hope what i have now enough to get me to place i wanted to go …

passport has 1 stamp already .. ( wink wink..)..

pics and updates coming soon….

who i am : soul searching ….

this song mean a lot to me …

it says exactly what i have been facing all this while….

here is the lyrics… read thru , and u will understand ….

Look at me,
I will never pass for a perfect bride.
Or a perfect daughter.
Can it be I’m not meant to play this part?
Now I see that if I were truly to be myself,
I would break my family’s heart.

Chorus:
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me.
Why is my reflection someone I don’t know

Somehow I cannot hide who I am,
Though I’ve tried.
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside.

When will my reflection show
Who I am inside.

i have been searching .. and looking who i want to be .. and what will i be …

i think i have tried to be a good human, but human make mistakes .. and i am a human .. i make mistake too…

now there part of myself asking what exactly i want to do , or to be … nobody can answer that question except my own self .. but there is a question i can ask around to improve myself ..

what can i do ?

all by myself …

i am currently singing the all by myself by celion dion… ( i cant really sing … wat ? ok .. got it .. i really cant sing..)

so that y i opt to write down the lyrics…

When I was young ( i am still young!!!)
I never needed anyone (never ??? hang on r u sure ?)
And making love was just for fun ( fun ? says who?)

Those days are gone
Livin alone I think of all the friends Ive known (that is  including u !!!)
When I dial the telephone
Nobodys home (p mana tu aa?)

All by myself
Dont wanna be
All by myself  anymore

Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

eh salah lagu ni … wrong concept … yes i am all by myself but for another thing ….the next song will explain more…

All my bags are packed, I’m ready to go (yes i am!!)
I’m standin’ here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin’, it’s early morn
The taxi’s waitin’, he’s blowin’ his horn
Already I’m so lonesome I could die ( seriously..)

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go

‘Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

I’m …

There’s so many times I’ve let you down
So many times I’ve played around
I’ll tell you now, they don’t mean a thing

Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I’ll wear your wedding ring

‘Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I’ll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won’t have to leave alone
About the times that I won’t have to say …

still wrong concept la ni …
ok yg salah ni la yg mo kasi betul ni ..( aik.. cam besa jak ni .. mcm nda bulih lari jak dari tugasan teachery ni …)

so … the right one is…

i am leaving on a jet plane … all by myself … yes .. all by my self ..just like the title of this post!!! yey !! i am excited ..one stamp for my international is on the way … he he he…

have been dreaming of doing this so long ago .. i’ve been keeping the dream for..( hate to talk about it….)  .. but its about time to move on and JUST DO IT!!!! ( iklan NIKE ke…)

to me : have fun and have a safe journey …
to chel : thanks for all the tips…
to bidz : i am waitin for ur story of ur own trip …

ps:leaving on a jet plane all by myself ni gara2 someone ni .. u know who u are .. janji manis jak!!!